The Conversion of Saul

Acts Chapter 9
But Saul, still breathing threats and murder against the disciples of the Lord, went to the high priest and asked him for letters to the synagogues at Damascus, so that if he found any belonging to the Way, men or women, he might bring them bound to Jerusalem. Now as he journeyed he approached Damascus, and suddenly a light from heaven flashed about him. And he fell to the ground and heard a voice saying to him, “Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?” And he said, “Who are you, Lord?” And he said, “I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting;

Saul, breathing threats and murder against disciples of the Lord, who belong go the Way (the Truth and the Life-John 14:6).  How interesting it is that when Saul is struck by the light, Jesus tells him, "I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting."  He didn't say "my friends" or "my disciples," he said it is "me".  Do we ever think about what we do, or what others do to us, affects and involves Jesus?  I know that I too often don't remember that Jesus is on my side. 

...but rise and enter the city, and you will be told what you are to do.” The men who were traveling with him stood speechless, hearing the voice but seeing no one. Saul arose from the ground; and when his eyes were opened, he could see nothing; so they led him by the hand and brought him into Damascus. And for three days he was without sight, and neither ate nor drank.

What would it be like to suddenly be blind?  What would it be like to be told that Jesus knows what you've done and now you can't see.  Can we even imagine what when through Saul's mind?  I can imagine that he replayed many scenes over and over.  The people he had put to death, like Stephen, the threats, those in prison, and that Voice. Did Saul wonder how Jesus knew?  And now what?  Just that thought alone must have brought great fear to Saul.  What would we do with three days to face our faults?

Now there was a disciple at Damascus named Anani′as. The Lord said to him in a vision, “Anani′as.” And he said, “Here I am, Lord.” And the Lord said to him, “Rise and go to the street called Straight, and inquire in the house of Judas for a man of Tarsus named Saul; for behold, he is praying, and he has seen a man named Anani′as come in and lay his hands on him so that he might regain his sight.”

"House of Judas."  Well played, God.  The Disciple who betrayed is replaced by a traitor who becomes an amazing Disciple.

But Anani′as answered, “Lord, I have heard from many about this man, how much evil he has done to thy saints at Jerusalem; and here he has authority from the chief priests to bind all who call upon thy name.”

Been there, done that, I've felt threatened, I've been verbally threatened, but no one has threatened me with my life.  How many Ananias moments do we have every day?  Ananias must have felt terrified at first!  How much do we let fear decide what we do?  Perfect Love casts our all fear (1 John 4:18).  Ananias is a great example.  Was Ananias afraid?  Probably, but he didn't let that fear stand in his way of doing God's will.  Saint Ananias, pray for me!

But the Lord said to him, “Go, for he is a chosen instrument of mine to carry my name before the Gentiles and kings and the sons of Israel; for I will show him how much he must suffer for the sake of my name.” So Anani′as departed and entered the house. And laying his hands on him he said, “Brother Saul, the Lord Jesus who appeared to you on the road by which you came, has sent me that you may regain your sight and be filled with the Holy Spirit.” And immediately something like scales fell from his eyes and he regained his sight. Then he rose and was baptized, and took food and was strengthened.

For several days he was with the disciples at Damascus. And in the synagogues immediately he proclaimed Jesus, saying, “He is the Son of God.” And all who heard him were amazed, and said, “Is not this the man who made havoc in Jerusalem of those who called on this name? And he has come here for this purpose, to bring them bound before the chief priests.” But Saul increased all the more in strength, and confounded the Jews who lived in Damascus by proving that Jesus was the Christ.

How amazing that must have been.  Saul, who experienced a perfect 180, now wanted to learn EVERYTHING he could about the God who called him.  Whatever he did to harm, God forgave and called Saul to something more.  Every day, moreover, every time we to go Reconciliation, we have the SAME opportunity as Saul.  A perfect chance to change.  Do we?  Do our lives show it?  Today's Gospel continues the miracles of conversion:

Mark 16:15-18
Jesus appeared to the Eleven and said to them:
"Go into the whole world and proclaim the Gospel to every creature.   Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved; whoever does not believe will be condemned.  These signs will accompany those who believe: in my name they will drive out demons,  they will speak new languages.  They will pick up serpents with their hands, and if they drink any deadly thing, it will not harm them.  They will lay hands on the sick, and they will recover."

Notice the order:  1) Whoever believes 2) and is baptized 3) will be saved.  We baptize "assuming" the faith is there or will be.  Is it?  If it is, where are the miracles today?  "These signs will accompany those who believe."  The signs accompanied Saul, and the Apostles.  Do they accompany us?  This is a really hard question to ask myself.  I don't believe that the Holy Spirit has gotten weaker as time goes on.  God is the same as who he was then.  What do you and I need to do to lead others and show others our God?

Saul's story is only starting.  May we, too, increase all the more in strength, proving that Jesus is the Christ.